The Perils of Being a Mom....

I have a wonderful 9 year old son....he is absolutely a magnificent human being. I truly believe he will change the world. I know this sounds so great..."How wonderful for you...."I'm sure that's what others think/say....but raising him is a challenge. I want to raise him to be HIM...no medication, no special ed...I want him to learn and exist as GOD created him. I'm sure to others this may sound easy, but it is not. I have had to fight many battles for him. I have to admit that sometimes I am resentful that it is so difficult...and sometimes I direct that resentment towards him, which is not fair or right in any way! I pray everyday to be granted the strength, grace, patience, knowledge, and understanding to raise him up to be the "MAN" that I believe he can/will be.  In the meantime, I am trying to make peace with letting him be a boy, the boy, the child he is NOW. I want him to have happy and pleasurable memories of his childhood. I know that he will most likely resent me for somethings, but I hope & pray that he knows that I always worked diligently for his well being & happiness. Letting go of the expectations a mother has for her children and truly hoping & promoting the person they are & are to become is so much more difficult than I ever imagined. I guess I have a problem with our society...I won't expound on that right now, but I do have a problem with it, a lot of problems.  That being said...I'm so happy & blessed to have Isaac Beckham as my son and I am willing & ready to face any & all challenges I will face raising him as I wish. I only hope that my philosophy pleases him as well.

How To Make Friends.....

Really, this is more of a question.  I have about 7 friends that I have known for 10+ years. They all live about 500 miles away. We talk on the phone a lot, and I see them every now & then. However, I have come to realize the importance of friends who are in the same town that I can get together with and actually see! I've lived in Dallas for 5 years and haven't made that many friends. The friends I have here are either single with no kids (which makes my social outings with them difficult since I have 2 kids & a hubby) or moms with kids & husbands of their own (which makes socializing with them difficult as well). Someone once told me that I focused on my Arkansas girlfriends too much and that prevented me from developing friendships here. I don't know if I agree with that, but I would like a few "partners in crime" here in Dallas. I love hanging with Eric, but every now and then a girl needs a girlfriend, ya know? Honest opinions on hair, clothes, the weight I've gained are valuable!! I just realized this blog is starting to sound like a personal ad....that's not what it is though. I suppose it's time to realize that I'm at the point in my life where my social life is very much connected to being a Mom, school volunteer etc....
"Good friends are like stars, you can't always see them, but you know they're always there"
I love my Arkansas girls and I know I can always call & dish...gotta get me some Dallas friends that I can have coffee & conversation with-in person!!